This week I buy whale pants, otherwise known as M&S pregnancy knickers. They come in over bump, under bump and thong. The idea of a whale wearing a thong is quite ridiculous to me but the lady behind the counter tells me they are very popular, possibly with women who have nice bums who never . . . → Read More: Week 23 – Maternity pants
I feel stoned. I hadn’t recognised that it is like that until someone suggested it, but yes, stoned is a really good way to put it. I am the vaguest person alive, quite capable of standing and staring at nothing for ages and I can’t do more than one thing at a time. I find . . . → Read More: Week 22 – Vagueness
I had a scan today and all is well, though the womb lodger took some persuading to show anything but its head for the first 2 goes. The nurses kept sending me out to drink more water/wee a bit/eat some sugar/walk around until it moved. It’s so strange feeling it move and seeing it on . . . → Read More: Week 21 – Anomaly scan
I don’t usually wear bras, I hate the feeling of restriction. However, I am now a 38 or 40 c or d so the time has come to buy one. Also a friend bought me a beautiful top that needs something underneath so I don’t fall out of it.
I went to Mothercare, Debenhams and . . . → Read More: Week 20 – Maternity bras
I think I have traded exhaustion for heartburn. I still live a cat like existence, without the licking my own bum and crapping in inopportune places elements. I sleep for a few hours each afternoon and take long long baths. I was lying in bed last night, trying to ignore my heartburn when my stomach . . . → Read More: Week 19 – Heartburn and spots
It’s fine, it’s fine! I just found out at 4.30 today, 16 days after having the amnio and everything is fine, foetus is dancing in delight! In retrospect, although waiting for the results was awful, and I was worried about the increased risk of miscarriage, the whole amnio experience was well worth it. I am . . . → Read More: Week 18 – First movements and amnio results
Ugh, 8 days after the amnio and I am having kittens every time the phone rings as I am expecting the hospital to call me with the results. I am trying to reassure myself that it had nice long legs on the scan and that short legs are a downs syndrome thing but I am . . . → Read More: Week 17 – Waiting for amnio results
I had an amniocentesis this morning and this is what happened: I lay on a couch and exposed my expanding stomach so the consultant could scan the foetus and take some measurements (all normal). My boyfriend came to hold my hand and we had a great view of bones and skull and he heart pumping . . . → Read More: Week 16 – Anmiocentesis experience
For the first time in my life I am getting constipation. I have forgotten what period pain feels like so I am worried that I am feeling cramps and it is nothing to do with constipation. I have a rough idea where my uterus is and the pain is sort of at the top of . . . → Read More: Week 15 – constipation
All of a sudden I look really pregnant! I’m sure I didn’t eat that much Xmas pudding.
I was hoping to be able to get some work in the 2nd trimester but I am still exhausted. I went for an interview today at 10am (didn’t get the job) got home at 1 and had to . . . → Read More: Week 14 – Exhaustion
This week I cancel the Chorionic Villus Sampling after researching it in depth. It has only been used for about 25 years so I worry about the long term effects of having a bit of your placenta taken out when you are forming. Also, it seems that less people are trained to do a CVS . . . → Read More: Week 13 – Why I cancelled the CVS
The nausea has vanished and I have a life back hooray! It’s such an enormous relief to get through the first 12 weeks ok but I keep waking up at night thinking ‘s**t, I’m pregnant, oh s**t, I don’t like babies’
Next trauma for me is a CVS next week, I don’t think pregnancy is . . . → Read More: Week 12 – No more nausea!
I feel an awful lot better than I did a couple of weeks ago.
It really did feel like the morning sickness was never going to end but last week the dizziness went and I haven’t been sick for days now. I realise it may come back but I am sure I am over the . . . → Read More: Week 11 – I went out of the house
I went to chat to the consultant today about tests for downs taking boyfriend with me as back up brain.. Untested, my risk of having a downs baby are 1:365. The choices I have are:
Nuchal scan and blood test combined (OSCAR) at 10 weeks (not free on NHS so costing £170) – this will . . . → Read More: Week 10 – Testing alternatives
The first midwifes appointment. She asked lots of questions about my medical history but didn’t actually check to see that the foetus is alive, they seem happy that I am feeling sick, have sore breasts and am drinking gallons of water. I wake up 2 or 3 times a night because I am thirsty and . . . → Read More: Week 9 – First midwives appointment
My current list of evil foodstuffs to be banished are:
onions fried food oranges tumeric rice
I am just starting to feel a bit better. The only thing that really works for me is keeping my head really still, moving slowly and not trying to do anything much. Sleeping with my head raised up seems . . . → Read More: Week 8 – Morning sickness
I was up most of last night thinking that I wouldn’t have wanted to be pregnant if I knew what it was like. I even had bouts of thinking that I wished I wasn’t. I feel terrible for thinking like this, I was so lucky to get pregnant anyway, and I am even luckier to . . . → Read More: Week 7 – Guilty feelings
I panicked and went to the doctor about abdominal pains and got referred the next day to the early pregnancy unit at the hospital, very efficient! So today I went for my first scan, she tried from the outside but couldn’t see anything so she went for the internal, slightly uncomfortable but otherwise fine. I . . . → Read More: Week 6 – Early pregnancy scan
I am in a ‘mine is the only pregnancy in the world’ space I think! Hope I grow out of that mind set soon. The midwife won’t see me until nearer week 12, so I am worried that all is going well.
My breasts are less sore, I am really tired and I am kept . . . → Read More: Week 5 – Feeling a bit peaky
I decide that my job is just too much for me so I hand in my notice. I have become increasingly exhausted and a bit scatty minded. Then, my period is 5 days late and I am never late. I have sore breasts, and I never have sore breasts. I am really tired and I . . . → Read More: Week 4 – Denial